It’s 13 till 8 am, so it is almost time to registrar. Even before I begin my registration I want to do good. I want to make everyone proud because I feel as if I let everyone down and especially myself. I can’t stand feeling like this. I want to be happy again.
I feel relentless and hopeless that I will not feel content until I get my studies correct. Wishing that my ambition has not eroded by my sorrows. Nothing else can satisfy this itch in my stomach . Nothing….not refereeing, not boys, not family nor friends. So its all up to me to show myself I can do this and not just be words and some big dream. That this can come true for me.
Some things are changing. My brother is finally moving out to Corona and my sister leaving to Argentina for 4 months. I was suppose to visit her but I don’t see myself doing that. I don’t think I deserve it… And finally I figured out my studies techinques I just cannot procastinate and give into any weakness that leads me to it…..
>no youtube loops
> Arderal… on lock but know your dealer haha
> and now that state cup coming no refereeing full weekends you know you do not get any work done for the days you are out…
> Also regionals should be more natural so don’t force it… your name is on the radar
Please remind yourself sarah who you are and what strong points you have :) good luck